Just as I was going to bed last night I got a phone call. The woman on the other end called me by name, gushed about how it’s been ten long years since she’s been in town, and when she finally identified herself I still was fuzzy on why I was getting this call. Then she asks to speak to my son Joe.
I don’t have a son Joe.
It turns out she is looking for the school-aged son of my ex’s current wife, and thinks he might live here. (What?!?) Additionally, she is calling on behalf of the church we escaped from last year. Then she shares how much my neighbor really hates me. Because I got divorced. (Yes, all those actual words were used. It’s also been over 8 years.) I am not making any of this up.
Have you ever found yourself in a situation of balancing grace with defending your boundaries? Here’s how my internal conversation went:
Grace: Okay, this woman is a little off-kilter, let’s be understanding and just end this conversation.
Warrior: This is an invasion. I need to protect and defend. Now.
Grace: Well yes, but let’s give her the benefit of the doubt, she probably feels pretty awkward and is looking for an escape.
Warrior: I don’t care, she Just. Keeps. Going. I’ve had enough, and she needs to stop. Now.
Grace: You’re doing a great job keeping in check, I keep politely shutting her down, I’m sure she’ll bow out now. Okay, maybe now. Hmm, likely now? Wait–no way: is she really talking about and asking after my kids…?!
Warrior: That’s it–out of my way.
Grace: Here’s your sword.
At this point in the conversation Warrior bluntly said that I am not discussing my family, and that this conversation was over. The woman on the phone finally got the message, apologized for bothering me, and Grace was able to not hang up in her face.
It is not a question of either being kind or defending your boundaries, the two are the same. Grace reminds the Warrior that a sword can point as well as chop.
Isn’t it great how we get to practice all the time? My balance is challenged lately, with a vengeance. I’ve slipped into a state that I like to think of as temporary–as in, “this too shall pass.”
My problem is that I seem to have accepted that this is how it is, even if for now. I think I told myself it’s best for my sanity, or at least it’s how to make it through the right now-ness. I’d like to slide back into the mindset of creating my reality, and choosing each day (or moment!).
I don’t want to embrace the chaos: to me that means joining in on it, or at the very least accepting it as okay. I want to flow in peace in the midst of the chaos. I want to let go of feeling like I must conquer it in order to then have peace about it.
I’m home now, breathing easy in the comforting arms of my family. Good news, I get to practice my renewed approach tomorrow!
I am peace.
Heck, even if it were like the rest, that in itself would still be awesome support and reinforcement. But. It’s. Better.
This is guidance for moving from theory into action. From knowing to experiencing. I can learn all I want about the field of potentiality (FP), but until I live it I haven’t yet understood it. This book gives nine simple experiments that anyone can do, using scientific processes so that we can prove to ourselves that we each have an active role in our relationship to this energy.
Pam’s writing style is very down-to-earth, relaxing, and funny. It’s a great read, a series of truly scientific experiments disguised as a conversation with someone you discover you want to spend more time with. E-Squared allows an individual to successfully prove the following, and I am not kidding:
1. There is an invisible energy force or field of infinite possibilities.
2. You impact the field and draw from it according to your beliefs and expectations.
3. You, too, are a field of energy.
4. Whatever you focus on expands.
5. Your connection to the field provides accurate and unlimited guidance.
6. Your thoughts and consciousness impact matter.
7. Your thoughts and consciousness provide the scaffolding for your physical body.
8. You are connected to everything and everyone else in the universe.
9. The universe is limitless, abundant, and strangely accommodating.
These are ideas that you may have read about and even experienced; this book provides proof for both those who need it and for those who may just be looking for a reminder.
I received this book from Hay House in trade for my unbiased opinion of it. Way to go, everyone–good group effort!
I read this book because I wanted to learn more about the field of angels at the crash site of Flight 93 on 9/11 in Shanksville, PA. Lille Leonardi, an FBI agent serving at the crash site, has written this memoir of her personal spiritual journey in regards to this vision she was gifted with. By sharing her journey she helps others with theirs.
The beautifully illustrated cover of the book says, “A Memoir About Flight 93, a Field of Angels, and My Spiritual Homecoming.”
If you are looking for a memoir about Flight 93 from an FBI perspective, you will not find it here. Bureau policy mandates that no classified or sensitive information be revealed, and Ms. Leonardi explains this in a succinct closing note. She is highly professional in keeping any FBI-related information general and generic.
If you are looking for an in-depth story about the field of angels, you will also not find that here. The vision she was given that she shares is incredibly powerful, profound, and pointed. The book is spent on her processing the vision and its effect on her life, rather than on the vision itself–which fulfills the purpose of her book. I give it four stars out of five because I was looking for something else, but this is still a good book.
If you are looking for a supportive story of one person’s spiritual homecoming to encourage and inspire you with your own, drop everything and go get this book! (Click on any of the links below now, and finish reading this afterward. Really. I’ll still be here for you.) If you are looking for details and depth about the angels that were present at the crash site, this is not your source.
A very human example of the ever-present divine support on our spiritual journey through EarthSchool, this book is a beautiful reminder that God totally has our back. Every time we turn around, He is there–whether we see it at the time or not. Heck, He’s there whether we even turn around or not! After reading this book, I felt hugely Divinely supported and connected, and that my incredible human-ness and journey is something to embrace.
Hay House gifted me with this book in partnership with my honest opinion of it. Their Book Nook blogger program rocks, and I am grateful!
To you: the wonderful stranger who, acknowledging that we didn’t know each other and would likely never again cross paths, asked my opinion on the box of hair color you were considering.
Please know that I gave the auburn color portrayed on the box thoughtful attention, along with your complexion and ponytailed brunette hair, before giving my resounding “Yes!” Your bold spirit was bursting for a change, you were following your own guidance, and my opinion simply reflected You back to yourself.
It doesn’t matter that I was in that particular aisle because I was lost. It doesn’t matter that I have zero experience with coloring hair. It matters that two complete strangers shared a brief exchange in which our souls were communicating.
There’s something I wish I would have said. I would have told you that you are radiant. I would have remarked how your hair color–au naturale or designed– is simply adding to the unleashing of the astounding beauty you already are. In that moment, in that aisle, your amazing spirit was clearly visible and talking to mine.
I know your hair turned out great, because you already are. I hope you are so thrilled with the results that you can barely stay in your own skin! And I hope your bold move brings you presence into your bold spirit.