For a long time now, I have seriously appreciated self-improvement books, courses, and materials. Sometimes I wonder if I single-handedly power this global economic industry… For example, I’m currently practicing how to improve my relationships (with friends, loved ones, money, myself) through clearing myself.
And then I had an Aha Moment. The kind that made me sit down with my disequilibrium while the world reset itself on its new axis.
I’ve been spending a lot of time on a creative project. When I’m not working directly on it, I’m mulling it over in my head. I even continue working on it in my sleep, considering next moves and possible results regularly in my dreams. It’s the kind of immersion where I figure I’ll cook tomorrow, I’ll save housecleaning for the weekend, and suddenly it’s two (okay, three!) weeks later with neither having occurred.
As great as my project is going and as much as I love working on it, being this focused also has it’s shadow. As an empty-nester, lapses in domestic upkeep have actually been liberating — but diminished eye contact and lack of regular connection with my husband does not make me feel fabulous.
Also, in being so deeply attuned to only one glorious aspect of myself I have discovered that I actually miss — the rest of me.
I’d love to be able to say that it wasn’t my regular store, or that it was a really large building. Or even that something had changed in the layout that threw me off. Nope, none of the above. What was different was me. Continue reading “Get Your Creativity On”